Ramblings

I wish I have best friend. Last week or so, we were discussing best friends at fellowship. It was an interesting topic and I got a lot out of it, but the whole time, I kept feeling a wee bit sad. Not too sad because Im just not that kind of person; I dont get emotional easily. But thats besides the point. That whole session just made me feel isolated and alone. I've known for quite some time that I dont have a best friend; no special buddy to turn to (Boohoo). It still hit pretty hard. I think, for my situation, that I wont ever really find a best friend. Everyone is in their own individual "clicks", so thats kind of hard to get into. I think these "clicks" start out at a young age, so its would be tough for me to keep up. Everyone would have very close and have had developed a deep relationship. I mean, I love my friends, dont get me wrong. It just would be nice to have that "someone". The friends I have now, we have a good relationship, but its never 'the best friend role'. I try to be best friend with one or the other, but its never really the other way around, so that sucks. Blah. And I've come to realize that my 'immidiate friends' arent as close as I thought. I love them to death and would do anything for them, but we're just so different. A lot of conflicting personalities right there; so you can picture how our best friend relationship would be like. Anywho, I just felt like venting. On a happier note, DUMBLEDORE IS GAY! Hahaha, that just made me want to put up that .GIF >XD Oh, and dont feel sorry for me, really. Its been like this for a while and I've accepted it. :D (See Im happy)